Few days ago i went to c a doc tat da facial aunty said he can diagnose disease by seeing through eyes.before this she got show me a lot of ppl took tis method n most probably they can solve they cases n living happily.because of tis aunty oweys promote me long long time ago,so i mai go lo due to the fee is just rm20 mai b sohai awhile to make sure it is effient or just guessing.
for da 1st time i saw da doc,he is not so lengcai n i think my hubby is lengcai more thn him...hahaha...after taking pic for both of my eyes he evaluate wat means by those lines n the colors tell us wat.after c carefully,he told me tat both of my eyes having stresses lines...i dun have good sleep...my brain dun have enuf oxygen...my lymphatic system not so good...my liver not so healthy...but the most big problem is my stress n tension create out all tis "good stuff" to me....else,i'm a healthy girl...
due to my stress,da doc try to help me by using psychology method to find out da problems i'm facing n wat makes me think so much.i saw he use my birth date to calculate my characteristic n he said tat i'm a lady boy,which means i was born to be a girl but thn my attitude is most likely like a boy.tat's y i'm lacking in communication so do social life.tis make me keep on zipping my mouth whenever i have problem n keep it with me.he told me bout the relationship between my dad n me.my dad never ever touch me since i grew up like mummy do.he just care bout my attitude n behavior n the most important is my education.he is so strict until i'm so scared of him n till now i'm still trauma with it which effect my sleep. every time i sleep,i can hear my heart jumping so loud.in the period of 6 or 7 hours sleep time,my mindset keep on alerting me.i can recognize which one is his footstep n which one is mummy footsteps as if i'm having nap.
the doc asked me;well,for tis 22 years...do u know y u so working hard to get good results no matter in academic n performed well? i never thought of asking myself tis question n he had ask me the right question.but yet,my answer din satisfy him.he help me to answer the question...u work so hard just because to have good result to fulfill ur dad's expectation n in other hand to gain ur dad's love.when i heard his answer,my heart so hurt because it is so true.
i'm sorry,pls forgive me,thank you n i love u....this 4 simple words...i never say it to my dad...when i'm listening to the doc,my mind is imaging my daddy...how will he react when i say i'm sorry?how will he react if i say pls forgive me?how will he react if i say thank you?n even i love u?i really hope tat i can say tis 4 words in front of him because tis is wat i owe him.i do really wanna break the lock between me n daddy...i wanna be daddy's girl...i really wanna be....at last,i found my own dreams.....to be the daddy's girl...to have his love....to feel his touch....
i'm praying to the God,pls give me more strength to achieve my dream......pls....
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