Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
You are my Destiny
So long since i honeymoon never update my blog cuz busy of fb games plus my laziness...today i just reach home from my hubby there having sweet sweet n gaduh-gaduh dates.when i came back,mummy tell me tat she let daddy know the flight ticket is bought from my hubby for me but daddy just diam-diam only.thn few days later when i still at kl,granny said to daddy "eh,i tot ah khoon got bf ady."n daddy replied,"i know la,but i just diam only.i wish she could find a guy tat is from the same career as her so tat her life would be better is tat is her fate."
bb heard jor thn dunno wat to say...how could bb tell him tat let bb choose bb ge life partner?how could bb tell him tat all these days is hubby who bring bb up when bb fall down?how could bb let him know tat bb had grown up n bb know which is good n which is bad?so many question marks in my mind....
all i just wan daddy know is tat i take serious with my hubby.lets say if my husband is a meriner too,thn who is gonna take care of both families and child?my own hubby now working at kl aso i hv so much thing to worry ady..at least when i'm sailing i can tell him wat happen n talk to him bout my problem.but if he is a mariner,thn who am i goin to talk to?when i'm signing off i'm coming back alone without anybody waiting for me at airport.i dun wan tat.i wanna stick to my beloved one.i dun wan my hubby leave home when i'm not around.i love my hubby which i have now.i no need to think so much whether he be able to feed me or not,i can do tat.
mayb daddy dunno wat is true love, but i knw tat and it is now exist in my life n make my life more meaningful n teach me to be more mature.wat can bb say to hubby is tat bb will not fed up in out relationship,bb will prove to daddy tat bb ge choice is rite.bb wan him to be greatful tat hubby is bb ge life partner.tis is all becuz bb cannot live without hubby...bb just love u so much....
bb heard jor thn dunno wat to say...how could bb tell him tat let bb choose bb ge life partner?how could bb tell him tat all these days is hubby who bring bb up when bb fall down?how could bb let him know tat bb had grown up n bb know which is good n which is bad?so many question marks in my mind....
all i just wan daddy know is tat i take serious with my hubby.lets say if my husband is a meriner too,thn who is gonna take care of both families and child?my own hubby now working at kl aso i hv so much thing to worry ady..at least when i'm sailing i can tell him wat happen n talk to him bout my problem.but if he is a mariner,thn who am i goin to talk to?when i'm signing off i'm coming back alone without anybody waiting for me at airport.i dun wan tat.i wanna stick to my beloved one.i dun wan my hubby leave home when i'm not around.i love my hubby which i have now.i no need to think so much whether he be able to feed me or not,i can do tat.
mayb daddy dunno wat is true love, but i knw tat and it is now exist in my life n make my life more meaningful n teach me to be more mature.wat can bb say to hubby is tat bb will not fed up in out relationship,bb will prove to daddy tat bb ge choice is rite.bb wan him to be greatful tat hubby is bb ge life partner.tis is all becuz bb cannot live without hubby...bb just love u so much....
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Im On the Paper~!!
early in the morning before we reach home daddy n mumy stop at the book shop just to buy the newspaper and there my face is publish....it is not just The New Sunday Time but The Sun, Utusan Mingguan also there.my mom is so excited where she cut down the article and bring it to laminate.
few weeks after the convocation, the Kosmo also publish our story on their journal session. although they never publish story bout me but i'm apart of the full cover photo. like usual,mummy cut it down to laminate n frame it. my hubby also seems so excited as his gf is on the paper.
hmm....i feel so happy not because of the paper but it is because i could let everybody proud of myself and let everyone happy with my achievement. i hope tat i can do more to pay back to everybody tat raised me up and to my hubby tat always helping me without saying a 'no'...
few weeks after the convocation, the Kosmo also publish our story on their journal session. although they never publish story bout me but i'm apart of the full cover photo. like usual,mummy cut it down to laminate n frame it. my hubby also seems so excited as his gf is on the paper.
hmm....i feel so happy not because of the paper but it is because i could let everybody proud of myself and let everyone happy with my achievement. i hope tat i can do more to pay back to everybody tat raised me up and to my hubby tat always helping me without saying a 'no'...
Monday, October 26, 2009
My Convocation...once in my lifetime
6 days before convocation....
like usual,i hv to report at ALAM at 19th of october before 2100 hrs. my hubby apply his precious leave just to send me back to ALAM. after everything is packed, we have our lunch at Serdang-char siu fan. actually we plan to eat lat thong ge,but they din open shop...what a pity...after lunch, we continue our journey to malaca. when about 15km before reaching ALAM,i just remember that where is my blazer?oh god!i forgot again...but my hubby convince me that he will send for me again tomolo. after reach ALAM,i bring all my stuff in the hostel. actually the hostel in melaca is more more beautiful n comfortable thn batu rakit campus on. the sea view,the cool nite wheather n of course,the design is more like an apartment. but what to do,it is my fate cuz i choose engineering.
at nite,v call up our sport instructor to bring us out cuz too bored here without tv and nothing to do.after get permission from warden, the sport instructor fetch us to a special restaurant.i've forgot the name of the restaurant,but they sell ikan bakar n otak-otak. all of us try the otak-otak and it is f.o.c coz it is the sport instructor sell one...hehe..nice~
5 days before convocation....
7.30 a.m. i woke up n hv my breakfast that my roomate bought last nite since v hv our supper outside.nearly 8.30a.m. we go to asemble for our convocation rehearsal. it is quite boring as we need to march cuz v r in uniform unit.
at noon,my hubby come to ALAM again just to deliver my blazer. how pity my dear hv to drive so far from puchong just for my stupidity. so sorry sayang....
2 days before convocation....
today we have to wear the bloody awesome uniform for our rehearsal. for my information it is for our class photograph shooting and make the last rehearsal together with the music band from army department. when they start to hit the drum, my tears almost dropping out as i'm thinking of my parents will attend my 'once in a lifetime' convocation. i can feel how happening and how grand my convocation will be,cant wait!
at nite, we've invited to attend our pre-convocation dinner that is specially organised by our c.e.o as to congrats us because this 102th- convocation is special to him, because this is the 1st batch that 200++ of student will grad and of course we r having ladies cadet as well...by the way,thank q c.e.o for the dinner but the food is not so nice as nikko hotel...hehe
last day before convocation...
this is the last day before tomorrow,i'm planning to sleep all day but my best fren invite me to lepak at her house. so suddenly my daddy call me up and ask me whether have free time to fetch me to go to malaca town to kai kai.
so we went to mph,dataran pahlawan mall and stop by aunty's home at klebang besar to visit her.it has been a long time never been there,i still remember the last time is when i'm having my interview at alam and coming for my induction week.
after that v have our dinner n daddy sent me back.
IT'S MY DAY.....
i wake at 6.45 a.m. having my shower and get prepared for my show..after everything is ready we walk to the assembly point to gather and take photo with frens for sure. so suddenly the timing hv been delayed for a bit late because our v.i.p is not yet reached and it starts to rain. i'm so worry tis rain will spoil my big day and it will varnish my excitement.
after an hour waiting,the rain stops and thn warden coming to queue us up to get ready to enter the hall. although it is a long way to walk to the hall but the joy in my heart make me forget bout it. as we reach the hall,i can hear the drum begun to beat as it beat my heart too. after a long queue according to out sequence, we start to march into the hall. i almost falling down when i step on the stair because it is wet.
after v have our seat,the choir begin and followed by the 'boring' speech. thn,it is the time...the host calling up name by name....1 after 1 went up to the stage to receive their diploma...now,it is my turn...i'm trying to cool down myself not to be so nervous...when my name is called,almost everybody down there especially the boys shout at me and the v.i.p told me tat i hv quite a lot of fans down there...i wish i could tell her tat i'm very popular punya ah moi...hehe...
after all those ceremony end, i can c my daddy n mumy face so happy. i dunno how to describe it but wat i know is this ceremony is for them,especially my father. he is so happy to c that a lot of reporters come to take or pic and he be more happy when i tell him tat i'm having interview with the reporters tat they neeed to attend too.
overall...it is a tiring day for the photo shooting and the hot sunny day but i think it is worth it to make my parents proud of myself and tis is the only way to pay back their sweats n hard work to raise me up.
like usual,i hv to report at ALAM at 19th of october before 2100 hrs. my hubby apply his precious leave just to send me back to ALAM. after everything is packed, we have our lunch at Serdang-char siu fan. actually we plan to eat lat thong ge,but they din open shop...what a pity...after lunch, we continue our journey to malaca. when about 15km before reaching ALAM,i just remember that where is my blazer?oh god!i forgot again...but my hubby convince me that he will send for me again tomolo. after reach ALAM,i bring all my stuff in the hostel. actually the hostel in melaca is more more beautiful n comfortable thn batu rakit campus on. the sea view,the cool nite wheather n of course,the design is more like an apartment. but what to do,it is my fate cuz i choose engineering.
at nite,v call up our sport instructor to bring us out cuz too bored here without tv and nothing to do.after get permission from warden, the sport instructor fetch us to a special restaurant.i've forgot the name of the restaurant,but they sell ikan bakar n otak-otak. all of us try the otak-otak and it is f.o.c coz it is the sport instructor sell one...hehe..nice~
5 days before convocation....
7.30 a.m. i woke up n hv my breakfast that my roomate bought last nite since v hv our supper outside.nearly 8.30a.m. we go to asemble for our convocation rehearsal. it is quite boring as we need to march cuz v r in uniform unit.
at noon,my hubby come to ALAM again just to deliver my blazer. how pity my dear hv to drive so far from puchong just for my stupidity. so sorry sayang....
2 days before convocation....
today we have to wear the bloody awesome uniform for our rehearsal. for my information it is for our class photograph shooting and make the last rehearsal together with the music band from army department. when they start to hit the drum, my tears almost dropping out as i'm thinking of my parents will attend my 'once in a lifetime' convocation. i can feel how happening and how grand my convocation will be,cant wait!
at nite, we've invited to attend our pre-convocation dinner that is specially organised by our c.e.o as to congrats us because this 102th- convocation is special to him, because this is the 1st batch that 200++ of student will grad and of course we r having ladies cadet as well...by the way,thank q c.e.o for the dinner but the food is not so nice as nikko hotel...hehe
last day before convocation...
this is the last day before tomorrow,i'm planning to sleep all day but my best fren invite me to lepak at her house. so suddenly my daddy call me up and ask me whether have free time to fetch me to go to malaca town to kai kai.
so we went to mph,dataran pahlawan mall and stop by aunty's home at klebang besar to visit her.it has been a long time never been there,i still remember the last time is when i'm having my interview at alam and coming for my induction week.
after that v have our dinner n daddy sent me back.
IT'S MY DAY.....
i wake at 6.45 a.m. having my shower and get prepared for my show..after everything is ready we walk to the assembly point to gather and take photo with frens for sure. so suddenly the timing hv been delayed for a bit late because our v.i.p is not yet reached and it starts to rain. i'm so worry tis rain will spoil my big day and it will varnish my excitement.
after an hour waiting,the rain stops and thn warden coming to queue us up to get ready to enter the hall. although it is a long way to walk to the hall but the joy in my heart make me forget bout it. as we reach the hall,i can hear the drum begun to beat as it beat my heart too. after a long queue according to out sequence, we start to march into the hall. i almost falling down when i step on the stair because it is wet.
after v have our seat,the choir begin and followed by the 'boring' speech. thn,it is the time...the host calling up name by name....1 after 1 went up to the stage to receive their diploma...now,it is my turn...i'm trying to cool down myself not to be so nervous...when my name is called,almost everybody down there especially the boys shout at me and the v.i.p told me tat i hv quite a lot of fans down there...i wish i could tell her tat i'm very popular punya ah moi...hehe...
after all those ceremony end, i can c my daddy n mumy face so happy. i dunno how to describe it but wat i know is this ceremony is for them,especially my father. he is so happy to c that a lot of reporters come to take or pic and he be more happy when i tell him tat i'm having interview with the reporters tat they neeed to attend too.
overall...it is a tiring day for the photo shooting and the hot sunny day but i think it is worth it to make my parents proud of myself and tis is the only way to pay back their sweats n hard work to raise me up.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Pre-convocation dinner
Actually,i duno what the heck tis dinner was...i tot it is just a normal dinner but actually it is a special dinner for us especially the becoming-ladies officer and best student. it is to celebrate our graduation as to complete our diploma successfully.
i dunno i should say that i'm lucky or just a coincidence...i've been arrange to sit at the main table with the c.e.o of MISC and c.e.o of ALAM. and of course, i can c that some ppl eyes has already been so reddish when she know that i'm gonna sit with important ppl. but what can i do,it is not wat i wan n i never ask for.
after having an 'exclusive dinner' at nikko hotel and photograph section, all of us going back to the ancasa hotel with the van that been arranged for us.it is a tiring day of course, because before the dinner my best fren n me r having an interview from the misc company for the mariner magazine. and for sure it is a lot of photograph session again...so tiring....luckily never be a model....ah ah ah ah ah .....model?!!!@_@omg.... wake up pls...
i dunno i should say that i'm lucky or just a coincidence...i've been arrange to sit at the main table with the c.e.o of MISC and c.e.o of ALAM. and of course, i can c that some ppl eyes has already been so reddish when she know that i'm gonna sit with important ppl. but what can i do,it is not wat i wan n i never ask for.
after having an 'exclusive dinner' at nikko hotel and photograph section, all of us going back to the ancasa hotel with the van that been arranged for us.it is a tiring day of course, because before the dinner my best fren n me r having an interview from the misc company for the mariner magazine. and for sure it is a lot of photograph session again...so tiring....luckily never be a model....ah ah ah ah ah .....model?!!!@_@omg.... wake up pls...
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Attention day...can i say that?
today my hubby n me were wearing the couple clothes that he bought from taiwan for the wedding dinner. but before that we went to times square bcuz it is just very near with the venue of the wedding occassion. as long as we are walking,i found that there r so many eyes looking at us...omg...what happen?too weird?or....we're too cute?hahah....
actually it is very sweet to have a couple shirt becuz i never wear like tis n walk around at the public places...the feel is.....excited+shy+funny...haha....
the wedding dinner is very meaningful as they show us the short video clip bout their live,how the hubby proposing the wife and a lot of tricks that had been set from the wife's friends side...it is so wonderful...the brides is so pretty and so the hubby also smart looking...it is so sweet becuz the next day is his wife birthday n he celebrate it with all of the friends one shot without his wife acknowledge becuz tis is for her surprise...i can c that the hubby is so love n care bout his wife..may their marriage will be forever...
actually it is very sweet to have a couple shirt becuz i never wear like tis n walk around at the public places...the feel is.....excited+shy+funny...haha....
the wedding dinner is very meaningful as they show us the short video clip bout their live,how the hubby proposing the wife and a lot of tricks that had been set from the wife's friends side...it is so wonderful...the brides is so pretty and so the hubby also smart looking...it is so sweet becuz the next day is his wife birthday n he celebrate it with all of the friends one shot without his wife acknowledge becuz tis is for her surprise...i can c that the hubby is so love n care bout his wife..may their marriage will be forever...
Friday, October 9, 2009
I'm Flying...
yay~few more hours i'm gonna fly to kl...for dinner with CEO of misc and my convocation but the most important thing is that i'm gonna meet with my hubby n stay with him for a period. The unlucky thing is that i'm sick since yesterday. I'm having fever and cough. I tot that it is just a small illness due to the weather very hot n suddenly raining but it seems i'm having fever again this evening n got a heavy headache. I hope my sickness will go away when i'm arriving kl cuz i dun wanna burden my hubby again...
There's so much things to pack n i hopt i wont left anything. It seems to be overweight since i got my uniform,blazer,t-shirt and shoes but money can settle everything,so no worry...
i'm so excited to wait till i get to kl.there's so many gifts n souvenir tat hubby show to me in web cam...hehe..but the precious one is the postcard i get from 101 building. i never receive kinda love letter before. although it is just a few words on the card but i know i present a lot of love to me...thanks dear...miss u....
c u soon~!
There's so much things to pack n i hopt i wont left anything. It seems to be overweight since i got my uniform,blazer,t-shirt and shoes but money can settle everything,so no worry...
i'm so excited to wait till i get to kl.there's so many gifts n souvenir tat hubby show to me in web cam...hehe..but the precious one is the postcard i get from 101 building. i never receive kinda love letter before. although it is just a few words on the card but i know i present a lot of love to me...thanks dear...miss u....
c u soon~!
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Found out new thing about u..
These days i've been trying to learn more dish so tat i can cook my hubby to eat. i just knew tat his favourite dish is 'xing guang tofu' as for my place it is called 'tie ban tofu', that is my favourite too...
today i've made it n try try...hmm...not bad...just need to touch up a lil bit more. mayb i missed something or i need to add more thing to get the taste more nice. i'll try my best for my hubby's sake...hehe
today i've made it n try try...hmm...not bad...just need to touch up a lil bit more. mayb i missed something or i need to add more thing to get the taste more nice. i'll try my best for my hubby's sake...hehe
Friday, October 2, 2009
Devil VS Angel
i believe,inside every human's heart there's an ANGEL and DEVIL. it is just about yourself to decide which side you are with. As for me, i'm a hot temper person, i know that. that's y the devil is conquering my mind. it is all about snooker and meeting his frens. i dunno since when i start to be so sensitive bout tis issue. and i also dunno y everytime he mention bout tis i'll start to be in bad mood.
just now i saw a video in youtube, it is a baby gal...dancing....so good..very splendid...!! then i start thinking,y i need to burden myself with this small small thing?and i'm asking myself,y can't i take tis as a positive way to think?like tis small gal,she never think that dancing is so hard but she goes toward it as she admire her idol so much.
so, my dear hubby...sorry for being such too much thinking and oweys get angry with hubby...tis video is for hubby...she's very cute...and...bb love you so much!
huby must see this :
just now i saw a video in youtube, it is a baby gal...dancing....so good..very splendid...!! then i start thinking,y i need to burden myself with this small small thing?and i'm asking myself,y can't i take tis as a positive way to think?like tis small gal,she never think that dancing is so hard but she goes toward it as she admire her idol so much.
so, my dear hubby...sorry for being such too much thinking and oweys get angry with hubby...tis video is for hubby...she's very cute...and...bb love you so much!
huby must see this :
Hubby is here...inside my heart ^_^
At last,my hubby ady came back from his long vacation. so miss him after all....he bought me lots of gift and he show me few of them when web cam-ing with him. All the gifts are so so so sweet and they're waiting for me with the air asia ticket that ady hubby booked for me. can't wait,its so exciting!
Recently i've been watching a video in my fren's link that she posted as she like to sing and she has the talent to sing that now still in progress of polishing. Don't say her, me too like to sing as my dream when i was a kid is to be a singer and performer. But at last, i'll be graduating as marine engineer which the 1st chinese lady in m'sia i can say.
The video is about Charice,which is singing talented with beautiful voice and a very young girl. i never listen to the voice that is so smooth when singing is high pitch. all the song that sang by her is from our international divas; celine dion,mariah carey n whitney houston...now she is spreading her voice to all over the world and the most important is her wishes to meet with the divas came true. Especially when she sang "Because You Love Me' with celine dion,omg...it was a very touching song until my tears start dropping. at this moment, i start thinking boout my hubby..what he did for me all these years and all the sweet n bitter moment that we've passes through...what i can say is, "i am the luckiest person to have u in my live"...
the lyrics of the song indicates what i feel towards you my dear...i love you so much...
BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME
"For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
I'm everything I am Because you loved me"
Recently i've been watching a video in my fren's link that she posted as she like to sing and she has the talent to sing that now still in progress of polishing. Don't say her, me too like to sing as my dream when i was a kid is to be a singer and performer. But at last, i'll be graduating as marine engineer which the 1st chinese lady in m'sia i can say.
The video is about Charice,which is singing talented with beautiful voice and a very young girl. i never listen to the voice that is so smooth when singing is high pitch. all the song that sang by her is from our international divas; celine dion,mariah carey n whitney houston...now she is spreading her voice to all over the world and the most important is her wishes to meet with the divas came true. Especially when she sang "Because You Love Me' with celine dion,omg...it was a very touching song until my tears start dropping. at this moment, i start thinking boout my hubby..what he did for me all these years and all the sweet n bitter moment that we've passes through...what i can say is, "i am the luckiest person to have u in my live"...
the lyrics of the song indicates what i feel towards you my dear...i love you so much...
BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME
"For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
I'm everything I am Because you loved me"
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Hubby is on vacation...
it has been the 2nd day hubby left for his taiwan vacation, but i miss him so much. a day without his sms n call will be a long long day to go but hubby still call me for a special one minute to hear to my voice n having a short report of what's going on there n where he has been visited. the most happy thing for me is he keep on telling me he bought me a lot of presents n gifts, couldn't wait for that.
the day i spend at home, the close i will be with my beloved mummy. i feel so sorry for her cause she has to face everything n do everything even that she is on bad mood or unhappy. but what i can do is to help her and keep on let her smiling. i promise tat one day i'll bring her for holiday n visit all the beautiful places around the world as long as i could. i want to keep her happy n get away from the family matters n all those trouble that flooded in her mind. i will bring her to spa and facial treatment. i will buy her pretty dresses n might be hired one maid to lighten her shoulder.
i still remember when a master feng shui came to tell us bout our future things n the location of each places that lead to the good things. he said my dad married to a poor wife. i was so so unhappy n feel sad when he said that. no matter how poor she is but she is so rich to me. she meant everything to me. i'm so sorry that last time i didn't listen to her advice not to have puppy love seriously n be concentrate to my studies. she never say anything when i get bad result, she also never blame me when i ran away from home. but her tears drop when she saw i'm home.
but i've totally changed.i must say that i have to change and it is a must. because i dun wanna let her tears drop because of me again except that she's too happy for me. i promise to u my dear mum n dad, i will try my best to achieve my target as well as to fulfill ur dreams for me to be a success person in life.
the day i spend at home, the close i will be with my beloved mummy. i feel so sorry for her cause she has to face everything n do everything even that she is on bad mood or unhappy. but what i can do is to help her and keep on let her smiling. i promise tat one day i'll bring her for holiday n visit all the beautiful places around the world as long as i could. i want to keep her happy n get away from the family matters n all those trouble that flooded in her mind. i will bring her to spa and facial treatment. i will buy her pretty dresses n might be hired one maid to lighten her shoulder.
i still remember when a master feng shui came to tell us bout our future things n the location of each places that lead to the good things. he said my dad married to a poor wife. i was so so unhappy n feel sad when he said that. no matter how poor she is but she is so rich to me. she meant everything to me. i'm so sorry that last time i didn't listen to her advice not to have puppy love seriously n be concentrate to my studies. she never say anything when i get bad result, she also never blame me when i ran away from home. but her tears drop when she saw i'm home.
but i've totally changed.i must say that i have to change and it is a must. because i dun wanna let her tears drop because of me again except that she's too happy for me. i promise to u my dear mum n dad, i will try my best to achieve my target as well as to fulfill ur dreams for me to be a success person in life.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Tired
It has been a long long time i never write on my blog since my grandma fell sick and i need to take care of her. Actually, taking care of her is not as easy as what we think like just bring her to toilet, let her eat med and it is all done. Taking care of someone will be more hard if you never think of you love her so much. These days i've been passing with to look after my grandma everyday, i've learn a lot of things no matter in the form of knowledge or mentality and human-being.
From the start, my grandma sickness is worsen because she couldn't eat nor drink. This make her weaken day by day and when our body is weak, we won't be able to think correctly and might feel easily fed up. My grandma love me, of course i know. But i think she loves everyone more than herself as much as she could. It is just ourselves to figure out and feel her love by using our minded.
The first day i taking care of my grandma, i really don't have much knowledge to take care of a patient, but slowly i can handle it myself and advices from my mom. To easier myself for taking care my grandma, i just put myself in her condition. What will i feel and what i want if i'm weak? I feel so sad of her cause she is an active person and never stop working at her fruit garden, she might feel uncomfortable to just lay on bed with the tubes and doctors taking her blood almost everyday for test.
So far untill today, she keep on giving a good sign where she can take her meal by herself, brush her teeth and toileting. There's one night where my aunt from k.t came back and also my grandma's foster daughter gather around to have a chit chat with her and giving moral support. She tell all of us bout her jewelery are to be hand over to whom. That time i was not in the group as i'm playing with my kitten. What i know from my mom is grandma will handover her most expansive necklace worth 5,000 to me. I was shock and ask my mom why is that? Grandma said as long she is sick, it was just me which the grandchildren who really take care of her. She can feel my sincere and she doesn't know what will happen to her if i'm not around. I was so surprise and touched, but it's not the necklace or any land that owned by her that i want. All i want is grandma to stay healthy and longevity.
And of course, taking care of grandma isn't a easy job because your mentality have to be strong and always give her moral support. There are stresses during taking care of her when her minded is too weak and likely to think bout death. The stress also will comes to you when one party is not giving co-operation to you and thinks that they have more important work to do rather than take care of grandma.
Since i've be part-time 'nurse', i learn that i have to appreciate my parents and love them with all my heart. Especially my mom, she's been doing all the house-keeping, laundry, preparing meals and look after grandma, but then she never said she's tired. Besides, she has to face my daddy especially his habit to drink alcohol everyday after work. She really hates guys or girls to drink and she also advice me not to find a boyfriend that is alcoholic or like to gamble. of course, my hubby is not those kind of guy, that's why i love him so much.
From the start, my grandma sickness is worsen because she couldn't eat nor drink. This make her weaken day by day and when our body is weak, we won't be able to think correctly and might feel easily fed up. My grandma love me, of course i know. But i think she loves everyone more than herself as much as she could. It is just ourselves to figure out and feel her love by using our minded.
The first day i taking care of my grandma, i really don't have much knowledge to take care of a patient, but slowly i can handle it myself and advices from my mom. To easier myself for taking care my grandma, i just put myself in her condition. What will i feel and what i want if i'm weak? I feel so sad of her cause she is an active person and never stop working at her fruit garden, she might feel uncomfortable to just lay on bed with the tubes and doctors taking her blood almost everyday for test.
So far untill today, she keep on giving a good sign where she can take her meal by herself, brush her teeth and toileting. There's one night where my aunt from k.t came back and also my grandma's foster daughter gather around to have a chit chat with her and giving moral support. She tell all of us bout her jewelery are to be hand over to whom. That time i was not in the group as i'm playing with my kitten. What i know from my mom is grandma will handover her most expansive necklace worth 5,000 to me. I was shock and ask my mom why is that? Grandma said as long she is sick, it was just me which the grandchildren who really take care of her. She can feel my sincere and she doesn't know what will happen to her if i'm not around. I was so surprise and touched, but it's not the necklace or any land that owned by her that i want. All i want is grandma to stay healthy and longevity.
And of course, taking care of grandma isn't a easy job because your mentality have to be strong and always give her moral support. There are stresses during taking care of her when her minded is too weak and likely to think bout death. The stress also will comes to you when one party is not giving co-operation to you and thinks that they have more important work to do rather than take care of grandma.
Since i've be part-time 'nurse', i learn that i have to appreciate my parents and love them with all my heart. Especially my mom, she's been doing all the house-keeping, laundry, preparing meals and look after grandma, but then she never said she's tired. Besides, she has to face my daddy especially his habit to drink alcohol everyday after work. She really hates guys or girls to drink and she also advice me not to find a boyfriend that is alcoholic or like to gamble. of course, my hubby is not those kind of guy, that's why i love him so much.
Friday, August 14, 2009
4th Engineer
After my Chikungunya fever had gone,another sickness come again. I rarely get gastric, but i've stomache for few days already. Maybe it is because of i take meal at uneven time due to i have to take care of my grandma at hospital. And again, i need to "Ma Fan" my hubby to take care of me again. Once again he need to bring me to clinic for further check and better medication. What can i do in return is to work hard and try my best to pass my oral examination as this is what he wants as his birthday present. At first, i dun dare to promise him with passing the examination but i will sure try my best.
The night before exam, my hubby willing to accompany me make my final revision although that i can see at his face that he is tired and feel sleepy already. Next day, he woke me up and prepare for Port Klang. As i'm "Miss Clumsy", i lost my letter from marine department. We've search it for half and hour but never found it. So, i just make decision to continue our journey to Port Klang before we get late.
At the Seaman Club, i saw my friends already there having discussion among themselves. So, i throw myself in their discussion by hoping to get more idea and refresh back whatever been tought on my previous ship and classes. At 9:45 a.m., the examiner passing in front of me. His face is so serious, that makes me more nervous and my gastric started to calling and jumping. After about an hour, the first candidate has came out from the Dewan Laksamana with a smile. I feel so happy for her, but she told us that he ask a lot of questions bout main engine and she couldn't answer so well as she never spot those question. So, what i ca do is just to remain calm and make revision since i still have some time before i've been called.
It is 12.00 p.m. sharp, after the second candidate has came out i make my move to go into the room with my assignment and fake TARB book. I can say that i really does take a dangerous risk to face the examiner. Luckily, when he check my book he never open the peronal details pages. What a relief! He asked me a lot of questions bout main engine that i surely have confident to answer and the rest question i just shoot and also frankly told him that i'm weak in the topic that he ask me. At last, "Congratulations, Miss Koh! You've passed the exam." I was so so so happy and excited to see him sign and put a "PASS" chop on my paper.
At last dear, i make it! I be able to fulfill your birthday present. I'm so happy and can feel that my shoulder are lighter now. I just left another resit paper to go then i'm totally free.
The next day, it's time for me to go home. I've packed my things and ready to KL Sentral. We having dinner at Kenny Roger's Roaster. While waiting for our dinner to be served, he asked me when will i come again? This is the most difficult question to be answered. I don't dare to give him any answer and promise when will come again. But, what i can really promise is bb love you so much and gonna miss you again for a long time until we have chance to meet.
Miss you, my dear.
The night before exam, my hubby willing to accompany me make my final revision although that i can see at his face that he is tired and feel sleepy already. Next day, he woke me up and prepare for Port Klang. As i'm "Miss Clumsy", i lost my letter from marine department. We've search it for half and hour but never found it. So, i just make decision to continue our journey to Port Klang before we get late.
At the Seaman Club, i saw my friends already there having discussion among themselves. So, i throw myself in their discussion by hoping to get more idea and refresh back whatever been tought on my previous ship and classes. At 9:45 a.m., the examiner passing in front of me. His face is so serious, that makes me more nervous and my gastric started to calling and jumping. After about an hour, the first candidate has came out from the Dewan Laksamana with a smile. I feel so happy for her, but she told us that he ask a lot of questions bout main engine and she couldn't answer so well as she never spot those question. So, what i ca do is just to remain calm and make revision since i still have some time before i've been called.
It is 12.00 p.m. sharp, after the second candidate has came out i make my move to go into the room with my assignment and fake TARB book. I can say that i really does take a dangerous risk to face the examiner. Luckily, when he check my book he never open the peronal details pages. What a relief! He asked me a lot of questions bout main engine that i surely have confident to answer and the rest question i just shoot and also frankly told him that i'm weak in the topic that he ask me. At last, "Congratulations, Miss Koh! You've passed the exam." I was so so so happy and excited to see him sign and put a "PASS" chop on my paper.
At last dear, i make it! I be able to fulfill your birthday present. I'm so happy and can feel that my shoulder are lighter now. I just left another resit paper to go then i'm totally free.
The next day, it's time for me to go home. I've packed my things and ready to KL Sentral. We having dinner at Kenny Roger's Roaster. While waiting for our dinner to be served, he asked me when will i come again? This is the most difficult question to be answered. I don't dare to give him any answer and promise when will come again. But, what i can really promise is bb love you so much and gonna miss you again for a long time until we have chance to meet.
Miss you, my dear.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Happy Birthday
It's my hubby's birthday...this might be the 1st time birthday i be with him on his birthday. But, i never prepare anything due to my health, busy with take care of granny at hospital and preparing my oral examinations. I just want to wish my dear a Happy Blessful Birthday and hope that my dear will always be healthy and happy all the time. I'm so sorry cause never give you any surprise or make you special on your birthday. But, what i give you is a worry bout my health and my preparation for my oral. I feel so sad because cannot finished my "present" for you, but i promise that i will finished it as soon as possible after my oral. It is just that I love you so much, my dear...Happy Birthday Hubby!
Friday, July 24, 2009
Unexpected life...
Somewhere in 2007,i've met a guy named Lai Joo Non. That time his nickname in the irc chat is 'coffee' but i forget what was mine. After we chatting, we decided to exchange or h/p number. Start from that day, we begin to sms each other to get to know even more. At that time, i have no feeling to him because i just 'frustrated'. :) We tell each other bout our life, what is happening and whatever on our mind.
One night, he told me to go into more deep relationship but i really have no idea whether to say "yes" or "no". Uh....Then he told me again, we just try to go with this relationship, if we found that we're not match then we still can be friend. So, i agreed him.
From the deep of my heart, he is not the type that i want because of our age distance and we stay too far. I didn't tell him bout this and try to go on again. I heard a lot of people said that if a couple have a big gap of age, it won't last long.
Day by day, he started to care bout me, tell me bout what happen during he's working at the office and try to understand me more. I really dunno that we are 'couple' or not cause we never met and never have a real date like others do. This keep me even make me more confuse to confirm with this relationship.
One day, i've disappear from his life for a week. This is because of i start to join ALAM as an Engine Cadet. I don't have any chance to give a sms or a call to tell him that i'm bot be able to contact with anyone during the induction week session. i dunno what he feel during that time. Will he worry bout me? Will he keep on trying to contact me everyday? Maybe this is the time as a "test" for him. :p
After a week been torturing in ALAM, the 1st person i call of course is my parents. After that he try to reach me. I'm glad that he call me, his action tell me that he really mean to getting in this relationship even more.
When my 3rd semester in ALAM, it was the sea phase practical onboard the ship. I'm very nervous for this practical. I scared that i'm not be able to catch up things like people do and create trouble to others. Unluckily when the day i report to the office, he never bring my medical report. This make the officer at the main offiice angry and shout on me as i am so dumb and troublemaker. That time, i really blame him for not to bring my medical cert. He try to apoligize again and again. It really make me so upset. The office rules are so strict and the officer there are so 'fierce' looking. It makes me even more nervous cause i really dun like people shout at me as i'm easy to get fobia and shock.
During onboard the ship, i keep on sending email to him as we're provided with email service and satelite phone. I prefer to send email rather than making call cause it is very expensive and not so clear. In the email, he always give me moral support and listen to my problem when i'm really stressed out.
Time goes very fast when i've been inform that i'll be signing off at Poit Tupper, Canada. It's chinese new year too. It makes me feel very happy and excited to go home. I miss pork very much!
When the 2nd ship training, i asked him to book a ticket for me to singapore as office has send notification to report there, but he forget to book my ticket. I'm really upset bout that. I treat him very cold on that day, until in the midnight he sms me to tell me that he willing to send me to JB by car if i'm still unhappy and angry. But i rejected him. After that, he sms again. he told me that he has found the sleep couch ticket for me and booked it for me. After i checked with him, actually he book a cabin for me. I'm very shock that he willing to book an expensive cabin for me to make me happy and forgive him.
After i've completed my sea phase, he came to fetch me at KLIA. It was very sweet when you have a person that you love come to fetch you come back from far and never meet for such a long time. He treat a lot of nice food and bring me to watch movie at the cinema but i fell asleep when watching Batman with him. :P
The 5th semester have started and it's the time to go back to ALAM again. So long never meet my friends and buddy. I'm very shock that everybody has changed. Some became more quite, some became more matured than i can think and so on. Everybody busy with their story and greeting each other. In this semester, i dunno whether my minded become mature or more narrow cause i've been thinking too much.
During school break, i sneak to KL to meet with my dear. This is only the way to cure our missing heart. This time i feel i'm far with him. I dunno if i'm the only think like this or he felt the same way too. I'm always looking for more intimates but everytime i try to tease him he said he's tired, this and that. He makes me feel very upset and make me think unnecessary. What i remembered is last time when the valentine's day, i wrote a card for him to show my love to him. I really really hope that he will write something to me in return no matter in what kind of method but he never do that. This make me feel even more frust and at last, i've cried. In my thinking, i blame myself for doing too much childish things and think that maybe it's true that what people saying bout having a big gap in age of boyfriend or girlfriend. I keep on thinking and thinking. I feel very down and unhappy. I dunno what to do. Even sometimes i think of break up with him but i never tell him anything bout my feeling. I scared that he will say i'm very childish or what.
But now, i don't remember since when, he give me more and more confident in our relationship. He love me more than yesterday. He let me feel his warmth even we are far from each other. He give me his hand when i fell down. He means everything to me. He does!
I can't imagine if my life is without him. Who am i if not him to guide me in my life. What will i be if he stop giving me support and share my problems. He is the one who make me grew up and having a mature thinking. From the start i'm confused and having doubt with our relationship, but now...I am very confident and excited to be Mrs.Lai. I can't wait to live with him to built our lovely castle. I do really really love him with my heart and soul.
Hubby, BB love you very much! Sorry for everything that bb did that might hurt hubby and please forgive bb if bb had say any word that might let hubby feel upset. BB just love you very much............
One night, he told me to go into more deep relationship but i really have no idea whether to say "yes" or "no". Uh....Then he told me again, we just try to go with this relationship, if we found that we're not match then we still can be friend. So, i agreed him.
From the deep of my heart, he is not the type that i want because of our age distance and we stay too far. I didn't tell him bout this and try to go on again. I heard a lot of people said that if a couple have a big gap of age, it won't last long.
Day by day, he started to care bout me, tell me bout what happen during he's working at the office and try to understand me more. I really dunno that we are 'couple' or not cause we never met and never have a real date like others do. This keep me even make me more confuse to confirm with this relationship.
One day, i've disappear from his life for a week. This is because of i start to join ALAM as an Engine Cadet. I don't have any chance to give a sms or a call to tell him that i'm bot be able to contact with anyone during the induction week session. i dunno what he feel during that time. Will he worry bout me? Will he keep on trying to contact me everyday? Maybe this is the time as a "test" for him. :p
After a week been torturing in ALAM, the 1st person i call of course is my parents. After that he try to reach me. I'm glad that he call me, his action tell me that he really mean to getting in this relationship even more.
When my 3rd semester in ALAM, it was the sea phase practical onboard the ship. I'm very nervous for this practical. I scared that i'm not be able to catch up things like people do and create trouble to others. Unluckily when the day i report to the office, he never bring my medical report. This make the officer at the main offiice angry and shout on me as i am so dumb and troublemaker. That time, i really blame him for not to bring my medical cert. He try to apoligize again and again. It really make me so upset. The office rules are so strict and the officer there are so 'fierce' looking. It makes me even more nervous cause i really dun like people shout at me as i'm easy to get fobia and shock.
During onboard the ship, i keep on sending email to him as we're provided with email service and satelite phone. I prefer to send email rather than making call cause it is very expensive and not so clear. In the email, he always give me moral support and listen to my problem when i'm really stressed out.
Time goes very fast when i've been inform that i'll be signing off at Poit Tupper, Canada. It's chinese new year too. It makes me feel very happy and excited to go home. I miss pork very much!
When the 2nd ship training, i asked him to book a ticket for me to singapore as office has send notification to report there, but he forget to book my ticket. I'm really upset bout that. I treat him very cold on that day, until in the midnight he sms me to tell me that he willing to send me to JB by car if i'm still unhappy and angry. But i rejected him. After that, he sms again. he told me that he has found the sleep couch ticket for me and booked it for me. After i checked with him, actually he book a cabin for me. I'm very shock that he willing to book an expensive cabin for me to make me happy and forgive him.
After i've completed my sea phase, he came to fetch me at KLIA. It was very sweet when you have a person that you love come to fetch you come back from far and never meet for such a long time. He treat a lot of nice food and bring me to watch movie at the cinema but i fell asleep when watching Batman with him. :P
The 5th semester have started and it's the time to go back to ALAM again. So long never meet my friends and buddy. I'm very shock that everybody has changed. Some became more quite, some became more matured than i can think and so on. Everybody busy with their story and greeting each other. In this semester, i dunno whether my minded become mature or more narrow cause i've been thinking too much.
During school break, i sneak to KL to meet with my dear. This is only the way to cure our missing heart. This time i feel i'm far with him. I dunno if i'm the only think like this or he felt the same way too. I'm always looking for more intimates but everytime i try to tease him he said he's tired, this and that. He makes me feel very upset and make me think unnecessary. What i remembered is last time when the valentine's day, i wrote a card for him to show my love to him. I really really hope that he will write something to me in return no matter in what kind of method but he never do that. This make me feel even more frust and at last, i've cried. In my thinking, i blame myself for doing too much childish things and think that maybe it's true that what people saying bout having a big gap in age of boyfriend or girlfriend. I keep on thinking and thinking. I feel very down and unhappy. I dunno what to do. Even sometimes i think of break up with him but i never tell him anything bout my feeling. I scared that he will say i'm very childish or what.
But now, i don't remember since when, he give me more and more confident in our relationship. He love me more than yesterday. He let me feel his warmth even we are far from each other. He give me his hand when i fell down. He means everything to me. He does!
I can't imagine if my life is without him. Who am i if not him to guide me in my life. What will i be if he stop giving me support and share my problems. He is the one who make me grew up and having a mature thinking. From the start i'm confused and having doubt with our relationship, but now...I am very confident and excited to be Mrs.Lai. I can't wait to live with him to built our lovely castle. I do really really love him with my heart and soul.
Hubby, BB love you very much! Sorry for everything that bb did that might hurt hubby and please forgive bb if bb had say any word that might let hubby feel upset. BB just love you very much............
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