Tired

It has been a long long time i never write on my blog since my grandma fell sick and i need to take care of her. Actually, taking care of her is not as easy as what we think like just bring her to toilet, let her eat med and it is all done. Taking care of someone will be more hard if you never think of you love her so much. These days i've been passing with to look after my grandma everyday, i've learn a lot of things no matter in the form of knowledge or mentality and human-being.

From the start, my grandma sickness is worsen because she couldn't eat nor drink. This make her weaken day by day and when our body is weak, we won't be able to think correctly and might feel easily fed up. My grandma love me, of course i know. But i think she loves everyone more than herself as much as she could. It is just ourselves to figure out and feel her love by using our minded.

The first day i taking care of my grandma, i really don't have much knowledge to take care of a patient, but slowly i can handle it myself and advices from my mom. To easier myself for taking care my grandma, i just put myself in her condition. What will i feel and what i want if i'm weak? I feel so sad of her cause she is an active person and never stop working at her fruit garden, she might feel uncomfortable to just lay on bed with the tubes and doctors taking her blood almost everyday for test.

So far untill today, she keep on giving a good sign where she can take her meal by herself, brush her teeth and toileting. There's one night where my aunt from k.t came back and also my grandma's foster daughter gather around to have a chit chat with her and giving moral support. She tell all of us bout her jewelery are to be hand over to whom. That time i was not in the group as i'm playing with my kitten. What i know from my mom is grandma will handover her most expansive necklace worth 5,000 to me. I was shock and ask my mom why is that? Grandma said as long she is sick, it was just me which the grandchildren who really take care of her. She can feel my sincere and she doesn't know what will happen to her if i'm not around. I was so surprise and touched, but it's not the necklace or any land that owned by her that i want. All i want is grandma to stay healthy and longevity.

And of course, taking care of grandma isn't a easy job because your mentality have to be strong and always give her moral support. There are stresses during taking care of her when her minded is too weak and likely to think bout death. The stress also will comes to you when one party is not giving co-operation to you and thinks that they have more important work to do rather than take care of grandma.

Since i've be part-time 'nurse', i learn that i have to appreciate my parents and love them with all my heart. Especially my mom, she's been doing all the house-keeping, laundry, preparing meals and look after grandma, but then she never said she's tired. Besides, she has to face my daddy especially his habit to drink alcohol everyday after work. She really hates guys or girls to drink and she also advice me not to find a boyfriend that is alcoholic or like to gamble. of course, my hubby is not those kind of guy, that's why i love him so much.